Saturday, March 10, 2007
I am feeling so much better now that things are REALLY settled. (:another page of my journal opens, where i pen my thoughts with a smile.
Friday, March 09, 2007
All i wanted was for everything to go well, but guess i screwed this up once more.
its all my fault, my stubborness.i did things my way, i screwed them up.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
its weird how it all ended up this way
but seriously, whether i want it this way aint really my choice anymore,
or could i put it,
your choice.
i do ponder when did we ever got so cold. so hostile.
didnt we agree on another way,
or did the rules change without me knowing?it weird how you set me thinking whether all this are what you decided on,
or maybe you found a better game to play?
beats me.but do remember to tell me which side of the game you're playing, dont leave me clueless of the rules.
if it was just months ago, i would not have done what i had done yestersday
and seriously am so much relieved now that things are settled.
and i guess I knew God was guiding me all along.
Thanks.i couldnt get to sleep thinking what was wrong
i mean i have to admit, it wasnt really such a nice feeling.
but now, never felt this relieved.
Anyway i was reading a book, and came upon this para
i thought it really made lots of sense, to me i guess.
"When you are truly at one with the universe, you must let those you love find their way true enlightenment by making their own mistakes. One must not force his or her opinions or beliefs on a friend or loved ones, no matter how clear the answer may seem. Only by allowing the people you care about to come to their own conclusions can your relationships endure."
did i seriously screwed up, please tell me why you are not happy with me.
am still struggling at the same problem
not knowing what to do.
i cant get to sleep, thinking about all this.
Lord, i am seriously lost?did i mess it up?please..
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
i've learnt that sometimes in life we have to remind ourselve, that whatever we do, we have only one person to answer to, and that is yourself.
so whatever decision we all make, remember, do it for yourselve.
It may seem silly, it may seem illogical,but who knows the problem more then you do?
who will feel the emotions in you. the truth is, no one, but you.
so dont feel guilty or sorry just because you dont abide to what people thinks you should do.
You have the final say girl.
Everyone's life is a picture, painted by only one person, and thats you.
The picture shows everything you're doing, and everything you have done.
But sometimes, you get tired, and doesnt want to paint the picture anymore.
So, Life sends problems to stop you, if you give up, your picture is finished.
If you keep going, so does your picture.
So the question is:
How soon do you want to see your picture? Do you want to see it now, when it could be so much more?Or later, when there's so much more than before?
It's your choice, for me, I'll keep going.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
There exist inside each of us a hidden unknown being who speaks a foreign language and with whom, sooner or later we have to strike up a conversation.
so its about half a month since i touch this empty space here
exams are over, LTC camp was great. (:
looking forward for OGL camp.
so much had happen, so much to ponder
i'm glad we had settled for the best
i know this is for the good.
there's nothing much i can asked for
just this,
understanding.
anyway, holidays are finally here,
hear this,
cant wait to bask under the sun again
i know its weird coming out from me. but yes,
i'm gonna start excercising and say goodbye to my fats.
HA. i'm laughing to myself.
what can i say, i'm being paranoid, or...
i guess you just wont want to know,
afterall, i know i wouldn't.
so off to laze around my house, you cant blame me, its raining
so i cant get my bumps out of the house to excercise.
excuses i know. But, whatever. (:
on another note, off to school on friday,
club crawl event planning.
